A letter to my lovely grandpa

Qing Ming Festival, the actual day falls on today. Actually it doesn't mean anything to me.

Cause I never been even once.

Every year when friends and relatives go to cheng beng, I actually just stay at home doing my own things.

I wanted to go, I mean it.

Not because I'm hardworking or what, I just feel like paying respect to the ancestors.

And I do curious what we have to prepare and do for the praying ceremony.

I still remember in the primary school, when we were required to write an essay about Qing Ming Festival, I did know how to write it even I never been or do before. Do you know why?

Cause I can refer to the essay books! =D

Don't you realise that those essay actually start with almost the same statements,

which is: “清明节时雨纷纷，路上行人欲断魂” ?

Oh yea, I used to imagine the scenes and situations while reading those essays.

*I've forgotten to mention that I love chinese essays, I always do. I've been reading a lot, especially those which are able to attract my attention.*

Alright, back to the topic.

I have been thinking to go to the temple, which is somewhere near Snake Temple, (I suppose it is at Bayan Lepas huh?) to pray my grandpa.

I didn't been to there for about 1-2 years.

I roughly know how to go there, but I'm not sure if I know the road to go back home.

So I cancelled the plan at the end. 

Sorry. But I promise will find a time to pay you a visit.

Miss you grandpa! ♥

Grandpa had a very hard time when he was still here.

I heard from my mummy that grandpa was a tricycle-man.

He didn't get the chance to enjoy easy life.

He died in a sickness which is something related to the stomach, I'm not sure if it's cancer or what.

Cause everything happened in a sudden. Nobody had expected it.

When he passed away, I was still in standard 2 or 3.

That time I couldn't feel and understand the sadness or pain of losing a close relative, but I cried on the funeral day.

When I heard the song, I actually cried, and suddenly I felt like I understood that I lost grandpa forever. *tears*

I didn't get a chance to take a photo with him too.

Dear grandpa,

Do R.I.P. Hope that this will never be too late to say it.

I actually don't remember every moments when we were together, but I remember your kindness and the love to all of us.

I remember those you've did for us. Nice one!

But so sad that I have lost all of them.
And I remember the familiar almond smell too. A drink that you like.

I sincerely pray that you will have a better and happy time on the next life.

And on your next live, don't smoke anymore. Smoking brings harm to your health.

Will remember you always.

Love you & miss you.

Till here then.

Your sincerely grandchild.