Lost

Feeling so lost out of sudden, like I'm in the middle of nowhere. Which way to go? Why, where and how I should proceed? 

For a moment I thought of ending up all of this, stop everything on the hand, cause the situation is already out of my control. I can't help but trying to enjoy every single day of my life. So not me! It's not who I used to be, not totally working hard like I used to. Feeling like I could predict the ending, a dead end over there, yet why is the end so far from here. I've been struggling for some times, should have already got out from the circle if I was still the old me. I hate myself being who I am right now, the helpless and hopeless girl after all.